I should probably start from the beginning, While I know Noones Life is perfect I just felt like venting before I move. I guess you can say typing up most of what I can remember in a blog and kinda putting that all behind me once I make a Big (and possibly Worst) choice in my life by living alone.
I'll put dates of events and I may go back a year or two to point out an important event. For an example, 1500-1750 and start from random places that're important in that timeline in say 1627, Sub-Dates I dunno. And then a new paragraph that starts in 1490-1750 instead.
For why I typed all this, it comes to 2008.
13 years old and Obsessed with BYOND to the point I was sleep deprived and hardly passed 8th grade, Oh and Brawl too since I had good internet and played wifi alot.
14, 9th grade, I'm The Punching bag since I liked wearing black jackets striped gloves Dog necklace etc. Still obsessed wtih BYOND and brawl. After (For some dumb reason) my mother paid $600 to bail my father out of jail only for him to get drunk that very same day and force us out of the apartment as we stay in the neighbors place. The Bandera police over here don't **** around, so that door was torn down and they arrested him Like A boss. But that resulted in us getting evicted again. So we move not even a mile away from my grandparents place, this is where it all unfolds!
Mother starts to party, drink, drugs, sex with more then one guy while using another poor soul who paid for our bills etc. So that also meant almost no eating outside of living on ramen, and missing alot of school. Since I had satelite internet and that's not friendly to online stuff, I didn't play BYOND or Brawl alot but I still stayed in the chats for the games and at the time when L4D was released I posted there alot
After months of doing nothing, my mother finally decided to do rehab, so move move move in January as she stays there for months.
Summer, She's out LET'S MOVE AGAIN So Off to kerrville in 09.
Some small but good house... And some random girl comes into the picture (A big problem, Which'll be typed BELOW AGAIN)
Apparently my mother turned lesbian upon arriving in kerrville, This girl Reeked of trouble.
Anyways, Good internet again so since it's 2009, I decided BYOND and GoW2 only, Maybe random Brawl/MKW wifi, Was actually doing decent in school... but then in october apparently CPS Was searching for both of them, so we bailed and moved to Ingram.
Here's where I'm pushed to the limit folks!
I wasn't enrolled in school till February, so from October-February I did nothing but anime manga Smashboards (Since I started to use it like a regular member in 2010) and videogames. And of course during that time I started to grow insane from the constant fights even with out of the picture. (Bandera apartment was a Random tomboy roommate, and Trailer a mile from grandmothers was mostly my mother/that fight in front of my eyes incident.) But what really pushed it was one random night, some guy who came by alot the past few months and was a friend of that girl apparently dropped off $3000 of Pot. Not knowing this (Since I didn't like her or her son I barricaded myself in my room) I start hearing that girl screaming and breaking ****, Meh usual.... Except my mother wasn't home. Knew something was going on, so sure enough I get a call she left the house after their arguement and stole the pot.
The girl hears me talking to my mother forces my barricaded door open, and much to my avail she's holding a knife for some reason tells me to help her find the stuff so I walk around the house not actually looking and she starts to follow me. I walk outside, stop talking and to try and make her leave, throw the house phone past her head as it shatters and leaves a small scar on my face instead.
[collapse=Taken from SA review]Mostly just my annoying life, but it probably all started getting even worse when I moved to Kerrville around the age of 14.
Then around when I was 16 of summer last year my anger insanity depression etc. was let out of it's bird cage when the $3000 Pot incident took place and I was chased around the house by my mother's ghetto lesbian girlfriend while holding a butcher knife in her hand, WHILE I was on the phone with my mother who was gone with the stuff, and around the time I somehow wandered outside, I threw our homephone hard enough against my (Yes I paid the bills) house to where a couple of pieces striked me on the left side of my face and that made me laugh insanely as I bled along with trying it as a means of scaring the woman away, which worked as she ran back into the house to trash more of mine/My mother's belongings as I continued laughing insanely outside[/collapse]
Mother comes back when that girl left to search for her, she hides the stuff and arranges som stuff that was messed with, She comes back, they duke it out. And cause I wasn't thinking of this any sooner at the time, I threaten to call the police and surprisingly it worked. Guess I know what to use against this ghetto.
Move again in May after being told in april that even if I stayed in school for the rest of the year I wouldn't pass 9th grade cause of missing too many months of school.
Back to kerrville, do good in school yet again get tired of the fights and leave November. The turning point of me finally moving was around when Quakecon 2 happened.
I rent a car, Only 1 hour sleep and mother sitting on porch wondering where that ghetto is. As she arrives back they duke it out on the front lawn, after they were finished we headed out for the tournament in dallas (despite me objecting to it, My mother insisted so she can be away from the house). And Getting Out first round by MK didn't make my day any better! This is where I started hating MK
December 2010 - 201?
Been staying at my grandmothers place since I moved out and therapy kinda has helped me, but I really think hanging out with actual people in this Community is what really cured me.
For A tl;dr version, the real reason for this blog is mostly just typing down all that's happened and hopefully everything changing once i'm living on my own.
But then another problem arises, I'm a 17 year old that was taught nothing by my parents Can barely cook, live off of government money and a 9th grade education. And I mostly feel down cause of how my life up to this point has been pretty hectic and boring while learning nothing in the process.
Also, you know something is terribly wrong when you've learned more from being on a gaming site then from actual people/family...[/collapse]
Edit: Will put more in here as time goes by, Maybe.
I'll put dates of events and I may go back a year or two to point out an important event. For an example, 1500-1750 and start from random places that're important in that timeline in say 1627, Sub-Dates I dunno. And then a new paragraph that starts in 1490-1750 instead.
Long As Fu** Ranting about Life
1994-2007
1994-2007: The usual Alcoholic Father, fights every week, breaking of stuff etc. On the day of my 13th birthday he crashed my cousins Baby shower and got beat up by my cousin's boyfriend, so of course the usual locking of our Front door occured except he actually broke down the door for I think the 3rd time so it needed to be barricaded as we just hoped he'd sleep in the garage (Which happened). So it'd only be normal for the Property Owner to finally kick us out after dealing with windows sliding doors etc. being broken after so many years.
So since we were kicked out, we decided to stay in a battered women shelter for all summer. (Yay first summer of doing nothing) And eventually I moved to bandera and more stuff happened that'll be typed up down below.
2004-2010 November
Around these times it all goes Downhill from here folks!
BYOND: My best friend showed me this gaming site that I decided to play with him since, at the time, playing melee by myself wasn't really fun.
Naruto Fantasy: Played this for hours on end and literally enough to get into top 20 for levels (Which was I guess pretty hard to do which took a considerable amount of time) But the game eventually stopped being hosted.
Soul Society: Since it was made by the same person that made NF, I decided to play this and I stuck to it longer then most games, this place is mostly where I (Sadly) recieved most of my civil skills, how not to act like an idiot, Correct grammar, A Fun troll that posted horrible porn etc.
Eventually after 5 years I became a captain which, in this game, kinda indicated that The owner of the game doesn't think you're an annoying douche and actually Have brain cells in your head, So you either get lieutenant from another Captain or your own Squad.
Freeze Tag Hideaway: This game was just a Nintendo based game about Playing tag, simple yet fun. I played it a month or so after its release and was such a nice boy I recieved GM. After awhile I got Admin for actually helping out with the game.
Megaman Wars: Yeah, Megaman characters and edited sprites fighting against eachother. This place was probably the most fun I ever had in my years, mostly cause the owner was a troll and this is possibly where I learned to tell sarcasm so easily and troll good and badly to people on here.
Resident Evil Online 1/2: shooting zombies, Getting admin for working hard etc.
[collapse=Taken from a Goodbye post I made before TX's LSC started]I will say after 7 long years on BYOND, going through 3 keys. I've had a Fun time playing an online game that WASN'T WoW or Runescape.
Landmarks of games/Moments will be below cause I feel like having the memory here if I ever go on this forum to lurk.
Naruto/Naruto Fantasy: 2004-2009, Keys Played On - (First ever account Cannot Remember), Lightning Dragons. In-Game Name - Cyber Spider. Staff Postions/Achievements: Around Top 20 In levels.
Soul Society: 2006-2010, Keys Played on - Lightning Dragons. In-Game Name - Soul Dragon, Sarugaki Baishin. Staff Postions/Achievements: Captian of 1st Squad, Captain of 3rd Squad.
Freeze Tag Hideaway: 2006-2010, Keys Played on - Ice_Yoshi254. In-Game Name - Hydro Yoshi, Lunar Yoshi, Sloshi. Staff Postions/Achievements: Game Moderator Early 2007, Admin Early 2008, Revived FTHA with Flip123 by ourselves in Late 2008. (http://www.byond.com/members/HeroOfTheDay) Iconned for the game while HoTD was absent.
Megaman Wars: 2004-2010, Keys Played on - (See NF) Lightning Dragons. Staff Positions/Achievements: Moderator around 4 times, Manager 3 times, Admin 1 Time. Tried a Hand at iconning, Didn't work.
Last but Not least...
Resident Evil Online 1/2: 2007-2010, Keys Played On - Lightning Dragons. Staff Positions/Achievements: Admin for hosting 2 years straight and managing the forum with Waterdude, Many Helpful guides and Ideas that're currently in-game, Basically myself being A FaQ Guide and knew almost everything to REO2 up till the addition of Multiple B.O.W.'s in (I believe) Early 2010.
1994-2007
1994-2007: The usual Alcoholic Father, fights every week, breaking of stuff etc. On the day of my 13th birthday he crashed my cousins Baby shower and got beat up by my cousin's boyfriend, so of course the usual locking of our Front door occured except he actually broke down the door for I think the 3rd time so it needed to be barricaded as we just hoped he'd sleep in the garage (Which happened). So it'd only be normal for the Property Owner to finally kick us out after dealing with windows sliding doors etc. being broken after so many years.
So since we were kicked out, we decided to stay in a battered women shelter for all summer. (Yay first summer of doing nothing) And eventually I moved to bandera and more stuff happened that'll be typed up down below.
2004-2010 November
Around these times it all goes Downhill from here folks!
BYOND: My best friend showed me this gaming site that I decided to play with him since, at the time, playing melee by myself wasn't really fun.
Naruto Fantasy: Played this for hours on end and literally enough to get into top 20 for levels (Which was I guess pretty hard to do which took a considerable amount of time) But the game eventually stopped being hosted.
Soul Society: Since it was made by the same person that made NF, I decided to play this and I stuck to it longer then most games, this place is mostly where I (Sadly) recieved most of my civil skills, how not to act like an idiot, Correct grammar, A Fun troll that posted horrible porn etc.
Eventually after 5 years I became a captain which, in this game, kinda indicated that The owner of the game doesn't think you're an annoying douche and actually Have brain cells in your head, So you either get lieutenant from another Captain or your own Squad.
Freeze Tag Hideaway: This game was just a Nintendo based game about Playing tag, simple yet fun. I played it a month or so after its release and was such a nice boy I recieved GM. After awhile I got Admin for actually helping out with the game.
Megaman Wars: Yeah, Megaman characters and edited sprites fighting against eachother. This place was probably the most fun I ever had in my years, mostly cause the owner was a troll and this is possibly where I learned to tell sarcasm so easily and troll good and badly to people on here.
Resident Evil Online 1/2: shooting zombies, Getting admin for working hard etc.
[collapse=Taken from a Goodbye post I made before TX's LSC started]I will say after 7 long years on BYOND, going through 3 keys. I've had a Fun time playing an online game that WASN'T WoW or Runescape.
Landmarks of games/Moments will be below cause I feel like having the memory here if I ever go on this forum to lurk.
Naruto/Naruto Fantasy: 2004-2009, Keys Played On - (First ever account Cannot Remember), Lightning Dragons. In-Game Name - Cyber Spider. Staff Postions/Achievements: Around Top 20 In levels.
Soul Society: 2006-2010, Keys Played on - Lightning Dragons. In-Game Name - Soul Dragon, Sarugaki Baishin. Staff Postions/Achievements: Captian of 1st Squad, Captain of 3rd Squad.
Freeze Tag Hideaway: 2006-2010, Keys Played on - Ice_Yoshi254. In-Game Name - Hydro Yoshi, Lunar Yoshi, Sloshi. Staff Postions/Achievements: Game Moderator Early 2007, Admin Early 2008, Revived FTHA with Flip123 by ourselves in Late 2008. (http://www.byond.com/members/HeroOfTheDay) Iconned for the game while HoTD was absent.
Megaman Wars: 2004-2010, Keys Played on - (See NF) Lightning Dragons. Staff Positions/Achievements: Moderator around 4 times, Manager 3 times, Admin 1 Time. Tried a Hand at iconning, Didn't work.
Last but Not least...
Resident Evil Online 1/2: 2007-2010, Keys Played On - Lightning Dragons. Staff Positions/Achievements: Admin for hosting 2 years straight and managing the forum with Waterdude, Many Helpful guides and Ideas that're currently in-game, Basically myself being A FaQ Guide and knew almost everything to REO2 up till the addition of Multiple B.O.W.'s in (I believe) Early 2010.
For why I typed all this, it comes to 2008.
13 years old and Obsessed with BYOND to the point I was sleep deprived and hardly passed 8th grade, Oh and Brawl too since I had good internet and played wifi alot.
14, 9th grade, I'm The Punching bag since I liked wearing black jackets striped gloves Dog necklace etc. Still obsessed wtih BYOND and brawl. After (For some dumb reason) my mother paid $600 to bail my father out of jail only for him to get drunk that very same day and force us out of the apartment as we stay in the neighbors place. The Bandera police over here don't **** around, so that door was torn down and they arrested him Like A boss. But that resulted in us getting evicted again. So we move not even a mile away from my grandparents place, this is where it all unfolds!
Mother starts to party, drink, drugs, sex with more then one guy while using another poor soul who paid for our bills etc. So that also meant almost no eating outside of living on ramen, and missing alot of school. Since I had satelite internet and that's not friendly to online stuff, I didn't play BYOND or Brawl alot but I still stayed in the chats for the games and at the time when L4D was released I posted there alot
Oh and despite not having a positive opinion on my father, the brink of my insanity/madness started by seeing random hick friends my mother has made at parties, beat up my dad enough to knock him out and drag him down our porch stairs as they left him on the grass.
Summer, She's out LET'S MOVE AGAIN So Off to kerrville in 09.
Some small but good house... And some random girl comes into the picture (A big problem, Which'll be typed BELOW AGAIN)
Apparently my mother turned lesbian upon arriving in kerrville, This girl Reeked of trouble.
Anyways, Good internet again so since it's 2009, I decided BYOND and GoW2 only, Maybe random Brawl/MKW wifi, Was actually doing decent in school... but then in october apparently CPS Was searching for both of them, so we bailed and moved to Ingram.
Here's where I'm pushed to the limit folks!
I wasn't enrolled in school till February, so from October-February I did nothing but anime manga Smashboards (Since I started to use it like a regular member in 2010) and videogames. And of course during that time I started to grow insane from the constant fights even with out of the picture. (Bandera apartment was a Random tomboy roommate, and Trailer a mile from grandmothers was mostly my mother/that fight in front of my eyes incident.) But what really pushed it was one random night, some guy who came by alot the past few months and was a friend of that girl apparently dropped off $3000 of Pot. Not knowing this (Since I didn't like her or her son I barricaded myself in my room) I start hearing that girl screaming and breaking ****, Meh usual.... Except my mother wasn't home. Knew something was going on, so sure enough I get a call she left the house after their arguement and stole the pot.
The girl hears me talking to my mother forces my barricaded door open, and much to my avail she's holding a knife for some reason tells me to help her find the stuff so I walk around the house not actually looking and she starts to follow me. I walk outside, stop talking and to try and make her leave, throw the house phone past her head as it shatters and leaves a small scar on my face instead.
[collapse=Taken from SA review]Mostly just my annoying life, but it probably all started getting even worse when I moved to Kerrville around the age of 14.
Then around when I was 16 of summer last year my anger insanity depression etc. was let out of it's bird cage when the $3000 Pot incident took place and I was chased around the house by my mother's ghetto lesbian girlfriend while holding a butcher knife in her hand, WHILE I was on the phone with my mother who was gone with the stuff, and around the time I somehow wandered outside, I threw our homephone hard enough against my (Yes I paid the bills) house to where a couple of pieces striked me on the left side of my face and that made me laugh insanely as I bled along with trying it as a means of scaring the woman away, which worked as she ran back into the house to trash more of mine/My mother's belongings as I continued laughing insanely outside[/collapse]
Mother comes back when that girl left to search for her, she hides the stuff and arranges som stuff that was messed with, She comes back, they duke it out. And cause I wasn't thinking of this any sooner at the time, I threaten to call the police and surprisingly it worked. Guess I know what to use against this ghetto.
Move again in May after being told in april that even if I stayed in school for the rest of the year I wouldn't pass 9th grade cause of missing too many months of school.
Back to kerrville, do good in school yet again get tired of the fights and leave November. The turning point of me finally moving was around when Quakecon 2 happened.
I rent a car, Only 1 hour sleep and mother sitting on porch wondering where that ghetto is. As she arrives back they duke it out on the front lawn, after they were finished we headed out for the tournament in dallas (despite me objecting to it, My mother insisted so she can be away from the house). And Getting Out first round by MK didn't make my day any better! This is where I started hating MK
December 2010 - 201?
Been staying at my grandmothers place since I moved out and therapy kinda has helped me, but I really think hanging out with actual people in this Community is what really cured me.
For A tl;dr version, the real reason for this blog is mostly just typing down all that's happened and hopefully everything changing once i'm living on my own.
But then another problem arises, I'm a 17 year old that was taught nothing by my parents Can barely cook, live off of government money and a 9th grade education. And I mostly feel down cause of how my life up to this point has been pretty hectic and boring while learning nothing in the process.
Also, you know something is terribly wrong when you've learned more from being on a gaming site then from actual people/family...[/collapse]
Edit: Will put more in here as time goes by, Maybe.
