I had this conversation earlier, and I said to the other person I was talking to, I wouldn't feel right getting a round trip all the way there and back, only paying half of what he needed. Also, I wouldn't feel comfortable sayign I would pay him back later, since I donn't have a job. Who knows when that would be. It's just the way I feel, sorry. Also, for me to be able to pay him the half, I would have to give up two of the events I wanted to enter, that may not sound too bad, but I wouldn't feel rather crappy to have gone, not entered everything I wanted to, and still ended up owing someone about 10 bucks.
I don't have the cash, I would like to save myself, and Artery Clogger that problem, and trouble for that matter.
"A 16-year-old can't make it out of his city because he has no money, he had poor planning, and wasn't expecting the price of the ride to be as much as it was. In the future he should be more mindful of how he keeps his money. He's *****ing out at the last minute. He's scared of getting *****. He's emo all of the time, what should it matter, he'd likely just complain over there all the time anyway."
By next tournament I should have a job, and I'll be sure to manage my money better, I'll have to learn to sooner or later, I'm about to be 17, and will be moving out next year. If this teaches me anything, it's that anything you want has to come with discipline, and I have to decide when it's smart to buy the little things I tend to buy, or when to spend money on things.
I am sorry about this, I was really looking forward to this, especially since Sheth told me he had Umineko music on his Wii, that was something I'd kill to play to. But, I guess that's what I get for not planning better.
I'm certain to get a bunch of crap about "johns" and everything for not being able to show up, if you have anythign juvenile, and immature to say, go ahead, just know that I don't care, and you'd be wasting your time doing so. I was trying to make this post as maturely as I could, and I know I need to take better resposibility in the future. To anybody who was looking forward to seeing me, I am truly sorry, I make my best effort to be at the next tournament that I can.