sorry to rant on the smashboards forums but maybe i need to get this off my chest
those who don't know about my past of why i try so hard get ready for a sad depressing story
When I was 14 i started talking to this girl in texas, she was a family friend's daught we've known each other for 4-5 years at this point but we started talking. We started to really date when i was 15 , we talked on the phone for hours and texted and i visited every chance i could. When i was visiting as soon as i turned 16 i spent 2 weeks down there with her, i recall it perfectly we were going to meet up after i went to visit my family who wanted to see me, so her parents dropped her off in this park type area where we were going to go watch movies, shop around , and get ice cream . I was late by about 20 minutes , we pull up and see a car wreck and see the ambulance driving the other way from us to the hospital, i got out of the car looked around at first and see if i could see her, then i started to panic i started screaming her name my dad asked the officer what happened and said some girl were hit by a car and rushed to hospital. The car was some stupid 18 year olds acting cool and lost control of the wheel. I saw her at the hospital and she was in life support , she went into a coma and the doctor said she wouldn't be the same if she recovers, then she died due to heart failure 3 days after.
I didn't want to see my family that day and should have just said no and seen them later that night.
great now i'm crying cus i miss her
soon i learned to just turn off my emotions when needed and blame myself