Oz o:
Smash Journeyman
- Joined
- Aug 11, 2019
- Messages
- 214
I cared so much about this game, about trying to improve and get better. Stuff like that should come naturally, and I was very enthusiastic the first year. Quarantine and wifi just made me really bitter at the game, and my mental state kept getting worse since. And as much as I'd like to say it's just wifi, I'm playing just as bad and worse than ever offline. It made me so bitter how everyone seems to do better and do well, like they just "get it", and I've put in so much effort and I'm only playing worse.
It's like the whole Universe is telling me to quit, and I hate it. I hate that I really want to be good at something, and there's signs everywhere telling me to let go. This was supposed to be a game. "My" game. It shouldn't have to be this hard to simply enjoy.
It's like the whole Universe is telling me to quit, and I hate it. I hate that I really want to be good at something, and there's signs everywhere telling me to let go. This was supposed to be a game. "My" game. It shouldn't have to be this hard to simply enjoy.