DarkLouis331
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Link to original post: [drupal=2869]DL's Girl Story (The Conclusion?)[/drupal]
Well, alot of you may know about a girl I've been talking about on the boyfriend/girlfriend thread and relationship advice thread. And this is long, but I really think it's a good read. I put my heart into this, and I needed to get this story off my chest.
She is 16, and I'm 19, and that's a barrier that has always kept us apart because of you know...parents and the law (I believe in waiting to have sex until marriage however, so that doesn't apply to me too much) We've been hanging out with each other and our friends for about a year now. We've been to alot of places and have made oh so many good memories and I've always kind of liked her. But about 2 months ago, I started to like her...alot. I didn't know how to get her alone and tell her, because I needed to have other friends around her...because I respect what her parents might think about us 2 alone and the chance that I could get in serious trouble.
So I finally found the courage and opportunity to tell her on Sunday. My friend was able to come over, and so was she. I was nervous, but I told her. I told her something like:
"I just wanted to tell you that I kind of like you, Erin. And even though you're 16 and I'm 19, you're one of the closest people in my life and I thought I should be honest."
She looked excited and laughed about it, saying how things went from not-serious to serious right away. She told me maybe...because of what I expected, her parents might not approve of it. So I didn't talk to her Monday to let it sink in how I felt about her and not to be too clingy.
So then today (Tuesday) came...I went to my old high school's band concert...where she was playing oboe. So throughout the concert, I felt nervous, I just felt like things weren't going to go well when I talked to her afterward. The concert ended and I went to go talk to my friends. When just about everyone left, she pulled me aside and told me that she didn't want to give her dad a heart attack and her parents probably wouldn't be cool with it. She told me she felt bad, and that things may be awkward and asked if we were still cool. Feeling rushed, I didn't know what to say to that. and said dumb things like "yeah, oh, okay" and gave her a hug. My former best friend was there, I walked back with him to our cars and I told him that I finally told her.
So I asked her through text if I could call her when I got home because I felt like I didn't communicate well enough at the concert. She said "Yeah, that's fine" and I called her. This was the first phone call I ever had with her. It went something like this:
DL: "I just wanted to let you know that I'm cool with what you told me at the concert. I mean I kind of expected that answer from you. I just knew that I liked you and I thought you might like me, so I thought I should be honest.
Erin: "Yeah, at one point I was starting to become interested in you, but then I thought about our age gap and our friends. I mean, you, Dylan, and Brad are my closest friends and I would hate to lose that."
DL: "Yeah, I mean even if we did date, I would've made sure that we would've still hung out with them bc they mean alot to both of us. But yeah, I just thought I should be honest about how I felt."
Erin: "Yeah, and also I have a bad history with this kind of thing so I'm not sure if it's what I want right now, and I'm not sure if you'd want to go through that if it ended."
Erin: "I feel really bad" x9000 (Yeah, she kept saying this alot)
DL: "No, it's fine, I'll get over it" x9000
Erin: "Well, some of us have to get up early in the morning, so I better let you go."
DL: "I have the day off tomorrow, but I have to study."
Erin: "You're so lucky! But I guess that's a fair trade."
DL: "You're probably my closest friend, Erin, and we're still going to keep what we have had. If you ever need anything, just give me a call or text anytime, alright?"
Erin: "Alright, I'll see you later man"
And that was about it...and I thought I heard a hint of her crying...which is extremely rare for her. She's a punk kind of girl who doesn't cry easily. She describes herself as insensitive
I was crying a little too...I felt alright earlier, but it's beginning to sink in. I'm going to have to move on, but its hard. And now I realize I didn't get all the answers I wanted. Did she really ask her parents or does she just think they'll say that? (They do like me, I talk to them a little whenever I come over and have taken me on trips before) And what is this bad history she was talking about? Did I wait too long to tell her?
Since she's my best friend, I really want to know what this bad history is of hers and if I can help, because I have a somewhat painful history with girls as well... So yeah...I am sad, and I'm not sure what to do from here or if I'll ever get to hang out with her 1 on 1, even if it's just as friends. The good thing is that we still have at least 2 and 3/4 years left before she leaves for college to make more memories with our friends. Who knows? Maybe this'll happen later on. But she is most likely moving away for college, and I'm going to miss her like hell when that time comes. But I know I have to start looking elsewhere. And liking a girl this much doesn't happen often. It's just hard as hell right now. This all only happened a couple hours ago. I'm a little sad and a little confused, but I'm glad I took the chance and glad I found out much of the truth.
Well, alot of you may know about a girl I've been talking about on the boyfriend/girlfriend thread and relationship advice thread. And this is long, but I really think it's a good read. I put my heart into this, and I needed to get this story off my chest.
She is 16, and I'm 19, and that's a barrier that has always kept us apart because of you know...parents and the law (I believe in waiting to have sex until marriage however, so that doesn't apply to me too much) We've been hanging out with each other and our friends for about a year now. We've been to alot of places and have made oh so many good memories and I've always kind of liked her. But about 2 months ago, I started to like her...alot. I didn't know how to get her alone and tell her, because I needed to have other friends around her...because I respect what her parents might think about us 2 alone and the chance that I could get in serious trouble.
So I finally found the courage and opportunity to tell her on Sunday. My friend was able to come over, and so was she. I was nervous, but I told her. I told her something like:
"I just wanted to tell you that I kind of like you, Erin. And even though you're 16 and I'm 19, you're one of the closest people in my life and I thought I should be honest."
She looked excited and laughed about it, saying how things went from not-serious to serious right away. She told me maybe...because of what I expected, her parents might not approve of it. So I didn't talk to her Monday to let it sink in how I felt about her and not to be too clingy.
So then today (Tuesday) came...I went to my old high school's band concert...where she was playing oboe. So throughout the concert, I felt nervous, I just felt like things weren't going to go well when I talked to her afterward. The concert ended and I went to go talk to my friends. When just about everyone left, she pulled me aside and told me that she didn't want to give her dad a heart attack and her parents probably wouldn't be cool with it. She told me she felt bad, and that things may be awkward and asked if we were still cool. Feeling rushed, I didn't know what to say to that. and said dumb things like "yeah, oh, okay" and gave her a hug. My former best friend was there, I walked back with him to our cars and I told him that I finally told her.
So I asked her through text if I could call her when I got home because I felt like I didn't communicate well enough at the concert. She said "Yeah, that's fine" and I called her. This was the first phone call I ever had with her. It went something like this:
DL: "I just wanted to let you know that I'm cool with what you told me at the concert. I mean I kind of expected that answer from you. I just knew that I liked you and I thought you might like me, so I thought I should be honest.
Erin: "Yeah, at one point I was starting to become interested in you, but then I thought about our age gap and our friends. I mean, you, Dylan, and Brad are my closest friends and I would hate to lose that."
DL: "Yeah, I mean even if we did date, I would've made sure that we would've still hung out with them bc they mean alot to both of us. But yeah, I just thought I should be honest about how I felt."
Erin: "Yeah, and also I have a bad history with this kind of thing so I'm not sure if it's what I want right now, and I'm not sure if you'd want to go through that if it ended."
Erin: "I feel really bad" x9000 (Yeah, she kept saying this alot)
DL: "No, it's fine, I'll get over it" x9000
Erin: "Well, some of us have to get up early in the morning, so I better let you go."
DL: "I have the day off tomorrow, but I have to study."
Erin: "You're so lucky! But I guess that's a fair trade."
DL: "You're probably my closest friend, Erin, and we're still going to keep what we have had. If you ever need anything, just give me a call or text anytime, alright?"
Erin: "Alright, I'll see you later man"
And that was about it...and I thought I heard a hint of her crying...which is extremely rare for her. She's a punk kind of girl who doesn't cry easily. She describes herself as insensitive
Since she's my best friend, I really want to know what this bad history is of hers and if I can help, because I have a somewhat painful history with girls as well... So yeah...I am sad, and I'm not sure what to do from here or if I'll ever get to hang out with her 1 on 1, even if it's just as friends. The good thing is that we still have at least 2 and 3/4 years left before she leaves for college to make more memories with our friends. Who knows? Maybe this'll happen later on. But she is most likely moving away for college, and I'm going to miss her like hell when that time comes. But I know I have to start looking elsewhere. And liking a girl this much doesn't happen often. It's just hard as hell right now. This all only happened a couple hours ago. I'm a little sad and a little confused, but I'm glad I took the chance and glad I found out much of the truth.